Effeminate Men, Masculine Women | Male stewardess' don't have back insurance. Wait WuT?

 

The other day I told this guy who looked like a girl to take off the straps of his racquetball goggles since we wash the straps. He just kept looking at me confused while I kept telling him to take the straps off. After telling him for about the sixth fucking time I just said fuck it and let him leave it there. He then walked off laughing at me while I just said "that fucking faggit pussy piece of shit, he can't even touch his own fucking sweat yet he expects me to clean up after his ass."

Then I just thought to myself "Shit, I got a potty mouth!"

Well thinking about the guys I have to put up with on a daily basis any woman would pretty much turn into me if they were treated the way I was. I don't think I was ever raised believing that a man should pay for a woman and take her out. I was always told that it should be equal. Of course when I came around to dating someone who was pretty much a girl in every sense of the word with my fucked up beliefs and values I was taught I paid for everything and bought gifts. Then I sat down and thought about it and felt something wasn't right. Even more fucked up was that I was expected to "put out" without ever being taken on a date before. Remembering how I was raised I was told it was always okay to fuck just as long as condoms were used. But I started thinking about things myself and how fucked up that all was.

Considering when I imagine my dream guy I imagine someone strong,

masculine, FUCKING HOT like Genjuro. LOL. (Sure he's psycho but I have my own imagination on what I'd want him to be like) A man that would always have my back and treat me like a lady. Its like in this day and age the courting stage is taken out of relationships and basically you're just expected to fuck on the first date, go out for a couple months, and break up.

I'm glad that it just took one dating fiasco (even though it lasted FAR TOO DAMN LONG then it should have, I've had various people just walk up and ask me "so when are you finally going to end this because you know its not going to go anywhere?") to help me learn to weed out the bad guys. Fuck I just always think of that here I was being the fucking provider, bread winner, supposedly strong confident man, yet I was expected to be a feminine, nurturing, housewife kind of girl at the same time. I learned that depending on the man I can be a woman. And a woman is who I truly want to be. Like I wish I could just wear dresses and high heels everyday. I don't want to curse like a sailor, but I only became that way because when you're weak you're not going to get anywhere. You have to adapt and become stronger than the people that try bringing you down.

When I was younger I stopped lifting weights because I wanted to be more feminine in hopes to find a masculine guy that could protect me. That shit went out the window this one day while I was at an airport and I asked this male stewardess (well of course I should note something is already wrong with that title) if he could help me put my bag up. He told me he DIDN'T HAVE BACK INSURANCE AND LAUGHED AT ME AND TOLD ME THAT I SHOULD'VE PACKED LIGHTER.

Fuck my life.

From that day on I learned that I had to be stronger. I had to throw away my true self: the nice, shy, well-mannered, not vulgar, innocent, and sweet girl I truly am inside had to hide far, far away in favor of the angry, potty-mouthed, rude girl no one would step over. Of course the person I am on the outside is just a front. But do I want to be humiliated like that by EFFEMINATE MEN on a daily basis anymore?

No.

I remember being around another guy who expected me to pay for everything AND HE MADE FAR MORE MONEY THAN I DID and I just got fed up and cursed him out and straight up told him that he wasn't a fucking man so he should stop even trying to act like one because I clearly played the role better than him. He then ran off teary eyed and I didn't give a fuck. Its because of men like that I have to hide who I really am just to not get taken advantage of. I can't live my life being a woman. Because I'll get stampeded on with no strong Conan the Barbarian type to protect me.

I recall meeting a man who always talked about his wife in a traditional sense. He spoke about how he paid for everything, how she stays at home and doesn't work, how she cooks and cleans and all this other shit. Its sad that in today's world that's pretty much seen as inhumane. I recall when he was telling me about his wife I was shocked and was like "FUCK THAT! IF I WERE YOUR WIFE I'D GO TO WORK AND SPEND MY OWN GODDAMN MONEY!" Yet I haven't met a man out there that wasn't envious of his wife. I was even dating a man who said he wanted a wife like his. But of course to that man I dated he'd never find a wife like that. I realized in the end that his wife does have the ideal life for a woman. And when I say that I mean a woman who truly, deep down inside, really wants to be a woman - like me.

She found a man whose man enough to be the sole provider of the family, work, make all the money to take care of them, provide her with clothes, and other financial shit. In return she takes care of the house, familiy, manages the finances... He saves her from going to a job she hates everyday. He lets her life life as a woman. And I learned when I was with a man who was like that I saw myself wanting to live a life like that wife. I can be my true self, I can take care of others, if I find a man who can protect me and take care of me in return.

Sure in this day and age most people call women like that "GOLD DIGGERS" only to hide that the men saying that secretly want mothers to be their wives. They want wives that'll pay for themselves and work on top of being a mother. But put things in that sense, what's the point of getting married? When I get married I want a man that can be the sole provider while I can take care of things at home. I don't want to be with a fucking effeminate guy with fucking gender crisis issues how they're too PUSSY to work long hours to take care of a family and then throw off the extra work on a female on top of trying to act as the dominate man at the same time.

To that man that I dated that wanted a wife like that one guy's... He'll never find a wife like her. Because he expects equality in marriages where both men and women work. He wants an "independent" housewife. And really if I were made to be an "independent" housewife that'd only lead to me cheating or getting a divorce because I want to be with a man that can be a provider to a family. I want to date a man, not someone whose half woman half man. Its like the life that I'm living right now. I want to be my true self, but I can't - I pretty much have to take up the male role and the woman in me is just hiding deep inside. When I get married I want to finally be able to live life as a woman. Not any halfsie shit like "independent woman" bullshit.

Guys bitch and whine why girls want men that have money.

Its not so much about being a golddigger, its about finding a man that can provide for a family.

 

And when I think in terms of dating I'm not thinking about modern terms where you fuck on the first date, go on a couple of dates, and then break up when things get boring.

 

When I think of potential men I date I date them to see if they could possibly be husband material in the future. So if they're scrambling around lying to me that they don't have money to pay for dinner for the date that they asked ME out on or throw halfsies shit on me I know they're not husband mateiral because they don't have the financial shit down.

 

Not only that, if you're a cheap ass then that'd mean if I got married to them I'd be with a fucking cheapskate that'd put all the financial responsibility on me. And sure I've met a man who was willing to be my housewife, but I couldn't live like that either. Its like how long do I have to go on living hiding who I really am just so I won't get stepped over.

 

I'm around men who are so goddamn effeminate that on top of offering to pay for my abortions they offer to be my housewife? Is that how fucking lazy guys are today? Traditionally women were made to stay home and take care of families and have children. Guys were made to be providers for families.

I learned about a year ago the only reason why I seemed like a feminist is because I was around guys that acted like girls for so long. When I met that one man that actually acted like a fucking man the woman in me came out. I know I used to speak about marriage like it was nothing more than a piece of paper and a ring just showed that you were getting pussy or cock on a daily basis... but in the end I learned how important marriage truly is. Something that I never learned when I was younger because of course getting married was the last of my concerns being around so many effeminate men.

Till that time I'm stuck hiding behind my strong front. I'm around guys so damn girly that someone has to take up the role to be a man which is me unfortunately.

By Pinky Bento: September 11, 2010

Pinky Bento of Strawberry Queendom.

She's a Zip-a-Dee-Doo-Dah mothafucka.

Pinky Bento is the cupcake queen of Strawberry Queendom located south of Mango Fruit Dessert Peaks, 3 o clock right of Cherry Field Islands. Which is near Grape fruit Fountain but a little bit westward of Fuzzy MilkShake Grove.

She's possibly the most experienced & talented mothafucka but unfortunately Ms. Pinky is busy at the moment trying to maintain stability within the Queendom after suffering through two droughts in a row at the hands of the dastardly evil Kirby & his accomplice Chris Brown.